Monday, January 02, 2006
BLOG SHIFTED
www.myflawedperfection.blogspot.com
this is not a permission but a dare
Monday, January 02, 2006
Saturday, December 31, 2005
waiting for the you i knew hiding deep inside is like waiting for the sunshine in rainy december
USELESS AND DISAPPOINTING
this is not a permission but a dare
Saturday, December 31, 2005
i felt fear when i realize 2005 will be over in less than 24 hours time. i still have a few things yet to fulfil and i am so not ready for 2006 well at least not now.
david lee told me
its better to be happy for a new year than be sad and whine over the past year
brian told me
its bad luck to bring unfulfilled wishes to the next year
Maine told me
omg edelyn you'd be 18 soon good luck
andrew scott told me
eh cool take your driving license and pick me up from school everyday
victor told me
i wish you all the best in the coming year and i'd be long before i come back again
samantha told me
you will have new things to do in 2006
and new things will happen, whether good or bad
and we'll look back and say, oh this is what happened to me last year and/or a few years back
obviously we'll grow older
don't you think you've wasted 2005 away
i have, so i'm not gonna let 2006 go
shalyn told me
i love you and treasure the ones who treasure you
leo told me
good luck and have fun
charwin told me
good luck better sex partners next year
so yes any last words for me before i begin my 2006 ? anything at all you've regretted not telling me or never had the chance to?
this is not a permission but a dare
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Friday, December 30, 2005
everytime i dream of you, it'd definitely be a premonition and so far it has never failed me.
happy birthday samsam omg u are like finally 16
FINALLY LEGAL BITCH =Dlove u hugz
sorry for not wishing on the dot i fell asleep =X
Ever wondered if you took things for granted?
cherish those around you before they're gone
true friends never walk out on you, they would cushion your every fall
meet my true friend
i love you even after the outrageous amount of farts
u gave in mere 4 hours
i love you even if you have hair that looks weird
i love you for being there for me =)
meet Mr one of the 20 boyfriends
fwah feels like some celebrity hidden love life
i have too much love to give
meet jonathon he's only 16
and jessilyn's classmate
fu-cking talented arsehole
this is not a permission but a dare
Friday, December 30, 2005
Thursday, December 29, 2005
have been tagged by sawah again and she insists on me blogging about it
she wants to know my dark secrets ok more like just things abt yourself people don't notice
6 weird idios about edelyn you didn't or might not know
-when im angry and bitching i would throw names around hoping one will hit you
-i am super sneaky and i hate people paying for me be it my bf or friend i'd stuff the money back by hook or by crook*so if u find money somewhere and don't remember putting it there aheh*
-i have this pout where i abuse it to make ppl give in to me and they USUALLY DO =)
-i don't and i mean *DON'T* like to be tickled to me its like a torture or something
-as long as it is a shiny surface i'd check my reflection on it
-i have tons of clothes but i'd never have anything to wear so id be in the same thing over and over AGAIN
anyway
the past 3 days have been FWAHHHHHH
anyway i finally met up with my lovely cousin for a steamboat session
at marina south one word FANTABULOUS the food was yummy but of cause
you need the right company
hmm alot of dem says we look like sisters in this
like hello we are SOMEHOW BLOOD RELATED u know!
shut up i know i look older ok
notice one side is clean and the other is like CHAO DA
why? cos that stupid thing was splattering all over our
beautiful soft hands and MY B.E.A UTIFUL EYE
so i had to shift to the other side to eat
and walk over when i NEEDA COOK
look at my pretty cousin with her 15 dollar bear AHHAHAHAH
ok its not about the present more abt the joy spending it with love ones
headed over to samsam's place after that
while cousin went to meet her extremely busy friend
who had a meeting at 7.30 pm
2 weeks since i went over fwah feels like a long time
miss her like F.A.R.K
a warm hug on a cold cold night
coincidentally everything that day came in twos
my and sammo's happy
knowing my love for strawberries
she got me a sealion*which i like to insist its a fish*
with a strawberry around it
and her crockie sea lion
see the blood resemblance
oh yes i sprayed her DKNY perfume on it
*geez i wonder where i get that idea from hmm*
FYI its a reindeer
i kept asking her wheres the cap
and shes like its not a cat its a REINDEER
YES I KNOW ITS A REINDEER SAM CAP BITCH CAP
*slaps sam*
poor bitch knocked her leg into the wooden bench
and it swell and the bruise SPREAD YEW
like some disease
orh la orh la come kiss kiss
she*passed me the foot*
no not the foot u bitch yr face LOL
this is not a permission but a dare
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Monday, December 26, 2005
i don't think ever in my life have i ever disappoint someone so badly, they've become numb to it, or even tell me oh i've expected it. so god if u actually exist which i don't think you do but still if u do exist let me ask you, what have i done to deserve being let down so many times, i actually don't feel the pain anymore? i don't feel the heart tearing, or the sudden pain or even tears which i should? it is not ok for me to feel this way, this year wasnt easy really. one of my supposingly best friend betrayed me, flirted with my guy, lost miserably and still think she's right. having people telling me they actually know me more than i do and expects me to do exactly what they say. having the guy i made my life framing me, went thru depression, fall in and out of love again.pardon me for the many YOUS becos this entry isnt about 1 person but a big bunch of assholes
dont console me because i am not hurt, the stupid rainy weather isnt effecting me and ive lost interest dancing in the rain, i don't care if u call him a bastard her a slut, him a wussy her a bitch, him an asshole her a whore
this blog was used to pour out my feelings at least in the past it was of some use now, even if blood drips all over it, it will still be useless.
i am not someone who keeps my feelings inside why suffer alone rant out if you want, i didn't mean to hurt you with things i say but instead u are protecting yourself by hurting me, i make a good gf but a horrible ex gf and an even worse friend.
all ive ever heard was the things ive done that u're unhappy with but i have never once heard u tell me but its alright just don't do it again.
don't ask me what i expect of you, ask yourself what do u expect of yourself because i cant tell u what to do how to walk your life
i ought to hate those who gave me all these pain trust me if i didnt care this entry won't be up here but trust me once more i'm letting all of you go =)
i remember char told me once long ago. thats the thing about u i like most the ability to stand up and love again even after being let down and stepped on.
but char you didn't know it wasn't easy the road to recovery the numerous times i fell down and i had no one but myself.
2005 is drawing to an end
this is not a permission but a dare
Monday, December 26, 2005
Sunday, December 25, 2005
defination of a dumb bf
she: darling i caught the flu bug
he: oh wow how cool did u keep it in the container cause ive been curious to see how it looks like
whats worse than bombay sapphire mix vodka peach, vodka citrus, ad vodka, jack daniels and coke? or worse than hugging the toilet bowl and puking everywhere but the toilet bowl itself? or worse than playing lick the whip cream off friends sweaty stinky body and spin the bottle?
a fucking hang over and 3 panadol extra
pictures are with amelia will upload when she sends dem to me, steffie called 5 mins ago to tell me we're caught doing stupid things on steve's video sneaky bastard, ahhh i love christmas, its one chance to go wild let your hair down enjoy your night more coming up tonight at jon's place WOOOOOOOH ok im gonna unwrap my presents NOWWWWWWWWWWWW =X
this is not a permission but a dare
Sunday, December 25, 2005
FYI EDELYN CAN'T HOLD HER ALCOHOL FOR NUTS
while i am still a lil sober i shall blog
parties at amy woooooh and kons and kayu's weeeeee farking joshua scammed me to drink some hard liquor farked up luckily vic finished the vodka for me wooooooh ok, j gave me some hot tea or dunno wat shit yesss i love the presents alotttt i feel so warm so much hugs so many friends all the familiar faces
charwin is farking excited abt his present HAHHA
amelia your gifts are making me cry u are forever so thoughtful so sweet putting in so much effort for the gifts from little detail u seek perfection i love the disc really =) alot im crying
amy u know me best thanks for the pillow and shirt you guys are the best picking me up and all
victor you coming back is the best present u can give me
samantha i miss u =(
ok heading out now BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE may the toilet bowl be with me
blah night
this is not a permission but a dare
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Saturday, December 24, 2005
i realize some of my friends ARE BLIND
this is not a permission but a dare
Saturday, December 24, 2005
ITS CHRISTMAS EVE TODAY THIS THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY FA LALALALA LA LA LA LA =) was sick this morning and slept the whole day, headed out to jp's hse to watch a vcd =) missed charwin's bbq damn it but weird la i dunno anyone there
HAPPY BDAY TO YOU
YOU ARE BORN IN THE ZOO
WITH THE TIGER AND LION
AND A CHIWAWA LIKE YOU
i got your bday present =D its something you wanted and made so much noise
i got my first christmas present from ela and JP TODAY ok JUST weeeeee =D a lovely tee shirt with the world FEAR on it ok no not those ah lian kinda of tee, fyi JP has good taste.
ok night night
this is not a permission but a dare
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Friday, December 23, 2005
VICTOR CHONG IS BACK and he brought me back too =) when he came back everyone started slacking, late night supper, late drive, bowling, soccer and bball haha i feel different
he taught me its because i have nth to occupy my mind totally thats why i keep thinking too much if you don't help yourself who will? why wallow in pity why bother =)
the tattoos gonna cost you but the pains for free
quoted jp
this is not a permission but a dare
Friday, December 23, 2005
Thursday, December 22, 2005
doing some last minute shopping later with amy
and maybe movie with ben tonight
my morning started off pretty uh shocking or surprised hmm
ok my horoscope said not to think so much so im not gonna think so much
i was feeling lost last night i actually felt fears in me phobias maybe
i felt like i had lost myself and i know of you out there wishes to see me stand back up on my feet, im sorry for all the disappointment but im trying i will not say im completely over it but yes ive moved on and im not typing this because he came into my mind but because eileen thinks i needa face up to it instead of running away cause its not like me and im bravely facing it myself hmmm yes myself =)
i dun wanna lie to you really but sometimes i wish u could just keep things and ask me yourself not infront of people white lies blah i realize ive lost the ability to lie because you like seeing thru me and guess wat no more lying i will do things the way it is and the truth, trust me the truth coming from my mouth is a little hard to handle =) stop saying im lying cause id slap u the next time u do =)
whenever i think of hurt and pain i think of the both of you, when i think of happiness and sweet memories i think of the 2 of you too.hmm nini was commenting that i like pretty boys and hmm maybe i really do =) on a lighter note i DO NOT HAVE FEELINGS FOR DAVID LEE nope im not attracted, attached, seeing, dating or whatsoever with him OMG david lee YEW.. never =) he just reminds me alot of this guy best frend i use to have =) really i dun wan ppl sprouting nonsense
party at amy's on christmas eve
maybe christmas with stella and jess i miss dem loads and most imptly i miss me =)
lastly deep dark secrets exposed
i drink from the milk bottle =)
sorry for the long entry and david lee DO NOT SPOT MY MISTAKE U IRRITATING SHIT
this is not a permission but a dare
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
hmm. i woke up in tears but i can't remember my dream
i am missing samsam alot haha dun ask me why
i feel lost yesterday i was sure i knew who i am
but i woke up not knowing myself anymore
this is scary
i actually felt fears in me
fear of? idk i really don't
i feel like driving now but yes i can't drive
i feel like running to sam's hse but she's not there
i feel like shopping but the shops are close
i want a hug but you're not there
i feel like calling brian but he's asleep
must be the emo songs samsam says i listen to too many emo songs hmm
i killed a cockroach =X and i am still trembling thats fear one of my fears
i fear losing love ones
i fear killing a cockroach
i fear the sense of insecurity
i fear loneliness
what more do i fear
this is not a permission but a dare
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Ok one more fulfilled christmas wish and its from DAVID LEE DA WEI or watever his chinese name i dunno so i anyhow anyway.. dear david waited till 4 am because i specifically asked for MACDONALD's breakfast not lunch dinner supper but its good la =X that made him stay there to study for his term test tmlMEET THE FIRST MEAL OF THE DAY*awwwwww aint david sweet* well NO and why?
you think he so nice meh BUY ME BREAKFAST AT 4 AM
U DAN GU GU LA=X hes just trying to
blackmail me to return lanjiao to himmeet lanjiao he has 2 other names blue key and lumpythou i would love to disagree lumpy does sound cute hmm
OK i am very nice too ok boo those who keep sayingi bully david lee. I FRIED HIM MANTOU WITH EGGS for breakfast =) aint i sweet =X but sorry no pics of itOK here is me ENJOYING THE *what do u call that?its at the tip of my tongue*OK this is the first time u get to see me with unkept hairand make up less so shut up
david lee please DOTE ON ME MORE I AM DEFENDING YOU LOSEUR*i sense another mac's breakfast coming up*
anyway im gonna tok on the phone now night peopleHUGZ and good luck to shalyn, david, leo and whoevers having term test this week
this is not a permission but a dare
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
i keep meeting stupid people today TELL ME WHY SOMEONE REALLY
ok im sorry im too bitchy
someone taught me today to not say my god its a lil rude so just say my god my auntie my uncle
hmm long but yes willing to try =) oh yes i have some dinner and dance to attend some police reunion and martins dragging me there lets hope i have fun
ok david lee is coming at 4 am to bring me breakfast and get lanjiao back hmm ok id go fry the man tou =)
this is not a permission but a dare
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
